*The name of this person has been changed to protect his identity.

My name is Jason, and this Christmas feels like the first true holiday I’ve experienced in years. I’m a young father of three beautiful children, and I’ve been blessed with an incredible wife who has been my rock through it all. But for a long time, I carried a secret—a struggle with pornography that nearly consumed me.

For years, I lived with shame, guilt, and the constant fear of being found out. I felt like I was failing as a husband and father, hiding behind a mask of perfection while my addiction controlled me in ways I couldn’t admit. The worst part was how distant I felt from my wife. I loved her deeply, but my shame built walls between us that seemed impossible to tear down.

Last year, I hit a breaking point. I couldn’t keep living this double life, and I knew I needed help. That’s when I discovered the SABR program. It was like a lifeline thrown into the storm I was drowning in. Through SABR, I learned to confront the roots of my addiction—not just the behaviors but the pain and emptiness I had been trying to avoid for so long.

SABR taught me concepts that transformed my life. I learned to replace my destructive habits with healthy practices, to lean into vulnerability, and to trust the process of healing. Most importantly, I learned how to build real intimacy with my wife. For the first time, I could be fully honest with her, and instead of rejection, I found grace.

Today, I am celebrating one year of complete sobriety. This Christmas, I feel a joy I’ve never known. The shame that once weighed me down has been lifted, and I feel closer to God, my wife, and my children than ever before. My wife and I have a stronger bond now than we ever thought possible. I see her not only as my partner but as a source of love and hope who stood by me when I couldn’t even stand by myself.

To any man who is struggling with pornography addiction, I want to say this: freedom is real. The chains of shame and secrecy don’t have to define your life. It’s not an easy journey, but it is worth it. I’ve experienced the joy and freedom that comes from breaking free, and I want you to know it’s possible for you too.

This Christmas, I’m celebrating not just the season but the new life I’ve been given. My heart is full, my family is closer, and I’ve discovered a peace I thought I would never find. If you’re ready to take the first step, don’t wait. Freedom is waiting for you too!

Family Strategies Counseling Center has actively serviced clients since 2000 in treatment for pornography addiction or sexually compulsive behavior. Our SABR program for adults, Tribe for college, and Band of Brothers for teens can help you! Give us a call at (800) 614-8142 or visit our website for more information: Family Strategies Counseling Center.